Journal in Verses

Black and White

January 30, 2016

Black.
Let me try this one, she said,
“…can I do this by my own…?”
Pushing him away
A self-deprecating
Twist on her lip,
Still smiling,
“I look …..y,”
Nearly taking it off

White.
Color of his heart,
Stood by the door,
Almost collapsing,
Almost sitting down,
Almost saying out loud,
“Will she say yes, or no?”

An old poem.

Keeping Your Shoes Clean

What if I look straight on While you look at me As we pass by And your heart leaps And catches my shirt button Do you think I would hold it carefully And put it in my pocket, forever mine? Or would I let it fall in my...

September 16, 2017

How do I know I love her

Saw her today climb into a car, someone else’s
May such moments of pain bring me
A clearer understanding
Bequeath her the rest of my years
Unlived, untainted, closer to God
This is how I know I love her.

April 9, 2018

Until You Look, Until You Smile

Curious thing, this crush is Second after second, the heart tugs For some look, For some smile, For some touch, All from you Only from you, All the time from you But you don’t know it, You don’t care for it...

June 30, 2017

Are you happy now?

We were blind once. We didn’t speak once. We didn’t know once. Then. Then…? We spoke a lot, First to ourselves, Saying “Is this real?” Then to each other, In whispers. I said I am nothing...

April 27, 2018

A Letter To My Autobiographer

See see see, I am here, right here you see. First you turned me on. Turned me like a marble, from words of garble. Round and round in your fingers, round and round in your head. Only a first draft You said, Wait till...

February 13, 2017

Why Can’t I Be Like Her?

It is back. Longing for her. Thought I’d turned it inward, Poking to learn how it worked its way. Would’ve been easier if she didn’t say how she loved me. Would’ve sustained a few days more if...

February 18, 2019